Life is a journey filled with unexpected twists and turns, and sometimes, it throws challenges our way that we never saw coming. One such challenge for me has been navigating Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (C-PTSD). It’s a condition that has not only tested my resilience but also pushed me to confront the unrealistic standards I held myself to.
From a young age, I found myself setting impossibly high standards for myself. It was as if I was in a never-ending competition with an idealized version of who I thought I “should” be. This ideal self was flawless, unscarred by trauma, and always on top of everything. But the truth is, life doesn’t work that way.
Healing from trauma, especially complex trauma, is far from linear. It’s not a neat and tidy process where you start at point A and effortlessly progress to point B. Instead, it’s more like a winding, unpredictable journey with ups and downs, twists and turns.
My journey through healing has taught me that there’s no such thing as a “perfect” state of being. I’ve come to understand that healing isn’t about achieving some idealized version of myself. It’s about embracing my imperfections and accepting that my past experiences, no matter how painful, are a part of who I am today.
Alongside my healing journey, life continued to present its own set of challenges. The loss of a beloved pet, moving to a new state, and the end of relationships added layers of complexity to my emotional landscape. Coping with these changes while managing C-PTSD symptoms became a daunting task.
It’s easy to get caught up in the idea that strength means always having it together, never falling behind, and never showing vulnerability. But that’s not true strength. True strength is found in acknowledging our vulnerabilities, seeking help when needed, and allowing ourselves to be imperfect.
As I continue to navigate the complexities of C-PTSD and healing, I’m learning to let go of the unrealistic standards I once held myself to. I’m embracing my imperfections as part of my unique journey. Healing is about progress, not perfection, and it’s okay to take one step at a time, even when life keeps throwing curveballs.
While my path may be filled with challenges, I’m strong, resilient, and always moving forward. And I want others to know that they are not alone in their struggles. Together, we can find strength in our vulnerability and support one another on this intricate journey of healing.
Remember, you are stronger than you realize, and it’s okay to be imperfect. Your journey is uniquely yours and it’s ok if it doesn’t look like someone else’s.
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